New ways of walking in the new year
Guess what though? Letting go of old behavior is hard to do—sometimes. The reason being is that some of my old ways of my walking I liked. They felt good. Those ways had become familiar friends and were comfortable. They were what I knew. They were my normal.
Every time I think about changing my stride I feel a foe surfacing: fear. Anguish too. Even their cousin anxiety finds a spot to grab hold of me. And my head whirls with thoughts of last year, and the years before that,"You change? Never. It's too hard and you never do it for long so why begin?"
So I ask my Father with lamenting heart, "How? How do I do it? How do I become your woman, the woman you can be 'oh so proud of?'
How do I start and not stop? How do I find a new way of walking this year Father? Please help this feeble child of yours,"I softly whisper.
While washing dishes by candle light she comes to me, Ann Voskamp. It's been a while since I've been over to her place. And then I focus on her words and that's when I see it, what I need right there on the screen, on her blog page.
God is like that you know. God always gives His children what they request when what they request is according to His will.
She understands the anguish of my heart. She's been here. I can always count on finding something on A Holy Experience that speaks to my personal experiences. That's why I'm so grateful that God has called me to the ministry of blogging. I hope that here in this dark space you find something that ministers to your heart and helps you as much as Ann's blogging helps me gracious one. Sorry for veering off a bit. Anyway . . . I find these words to hold true:
The spirit is willing, but the flesh . . . the flesh has a mind of it's own.
Here's the help that Ann Voskamp gives to those seeking to walk a new way in the new year:
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