"Where hides the joy of the Lord?"
"W here hides this joy of the Lord?" That's the question that's been plaguing my mind lately. God loves me this I know. But I don't feel it. I see it, yet I don't see it. I see things in my life working, yes, but how is it working for my good??? I wonder. These feelings are the feelings that in times past caused me to travel inward. Isolate...turn back in search of fullness . I'm hungry and need God's fueling... I bow the knees time and time again. I skim through the Scriptures looking for morsels. I find nuggets, but the soul doesn't seemed touched as it normally is. I utter these words...these feelings quietly to Him in prayer. I fight. I fight the feeling, but eventually it overtakes me and I give in totally to the lie. Clenching it closely even . "God is withholding good from me . " I'm totally embarrassed by these thoughts for I know they are not true, yet they seem to hav...