New ways of walking in the new year
I'm looking for a new way to walk this year friends. Guess what though? Letting go of old behavior is hard to do—sometimes. The reason being is that some of my old ways of my walking I liked. They felt good. Those ways had become familiar friends and were comfortable. They were what I knew. They were my normal. Every time I think about changing my stride I feel a foe surfacing: fear. Anguish too. Even their cousin anxiety finds a spot to grab hold of me. And my head whirls with thoughts of last year, and the years before that, "You change? Never. It's too hard and you never do it for long so why begin?" So I ask my Father with lamenting heart, "How? How do I do it? How do I become your woman, the woman you can be 'oh so proud of?' How do I start and not stop? How do I find a new way of walking this year Father? Please help this feeble child of yours,"I softly whisper. While washing dishes by candle light she com...